I know you're upset. I am too. They were incredibly stupid, doing what they did, but you shouldn't write your sister off over this. I take it you haven't spoken to her about how you feel?
[can't believe she's really trying to convince jinx to make things okay with vi, wow.]
now why would i do something so time-wasting as that? if telling her how i feel didnt go thru that empty head of hers the first 40th time, how will lucky number 41 make a difference?
heres a tip, enforcer: it wont. vi doesnt give a shit, silco doesnt give a shit. all they care about is their stupid dick measuring contest. if they gave a crap about what i think or even what u think, they would use their brain cells that just because death isnt permanent, doesnt mean the big wigs wont use that opportunity or an excuse to get rid of them for good.
You're absolutely right. It was thoughtless and stupid, and so very selfish, and should never have happened. But they are back. They're both okay, and that's what matters most right now.
But you have every right to be angry with them, too. I don't blame you. Giving yourself some space from them wouldn't be wrong of you. Maybe that will give them a reason to stop and think about how their actions are affecting you.
oh believe me, im not talking to either of them. im not even home. and im not GOING back home until i feel like it.
when i told them to go kill themselves over the stupid bar, i didnt mean literally. but whatever. sick of being between the two of them.
[ a pause as she sends out another message, suddenly having an urge to just vent. ]
the only reason ure alive right now IS because of vi, u know. because i know if i would actually blow u up to smithereens or shove a bullet to ur egoistical fancy head, ill never hear the end of it and vi will hate me forever.
and besides, u'll just come back. maybe. and wheres the fun in that, huh? i want u dead permanently. not for u to come back and bug me. so its pointless.
sure i can come up with neat ways to kill u for a while, but that will get boooooooooooooring. and i have bigger fish to fry these days anyway. ure a zit compared to jerry.
[Well. That sure is. Something. She always assumed that Jinx would hurt her given the opportunity, and this confirms it, but also why she has held out. For Vi. Maybe Jinx has had some growth as a person since being here.]
I suppose I should thank you for being the bigger person. I'll talk to Vi. Maybe I can make her see some sense. I was always against harming him, you know. Before, when she gave him that black eye, I tried to stop her. She doesn't always listen when she gets heated.
[it's so confusing as hell, recalling what happened before the world changed. her memories are still a mess, but Vi's at least helped her straighten things out, so she knows the truth, even if she doesn't exactly remember it right.]
She's been through a lot. You have too. But just remember, you had Silco. She had no one, all this time, and hating Silco and wanting to find you was what kept her going. We've been here a year, yes, but that kind of pain doesn't always go away so easily. [It didn't help that Silco liked to antagonize Vi, either, but she's not about to touch on that right now.]
and ive told u idiots over and over again, all he is doing is owning buildings nobody wants! hes not showing up in ur doorstep, mooning u, and throwing a middle finger at ur face. he is minding his own damn business. literally.
and yea, i get it. sometimes silco talks too much and he likes to dig under peoples skin. and maybe i can somehow get him to lay off of that.
[What else can she even say to that? Caitlyn doesn't exactly want to defend Silco, here. She doesn't believe for a second that he's simply just buying up buildings. She doesn't want to admit to keeping tabs on them, especially him and risk upsetting her more, even though it wouldn't surprise her if Silco and Jinx were aware to some degree.]
This isn't your fault, Jinx. Silco and Vi let you down. Like I said, you have every right to feel the way you do. But family is family. Sometimes they let you down. Sometimes they're frustrating and annoying, and you need space. That's okay. But I think, at the end of the day, you'll find a way to make it okay with them again.
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[can't believe she's really trying to convince jinx to make things okay with vi, wow.]
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heres a tip, enforcer: it wont. vi doesnt give a shit, silco doesnt give a shit. all they care about is their stupid dick measuring contest. if they gave a crap about what i think or even what u think, they would use their brain cells that just because death isnt permanent, doesnt mean the big wigs wont use that opportunity or an excuse to get rid of them for good.
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But you have every right to be angry with them, too. I don't blame you. Giving yourself some space from them wouldn't be wrong of you. Maybe that will give them a reason to stop and think about how their actions are affecting you.
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when i told them to go kill themselves over the stupid bar, i didnt mean literally. but whatever. sick of being between the two of them.
[ a pause as she sends out another message, suddenly having an urge to just vent. ]
the only reason ure alive right now IS because of vi, u know. because i know if i would actually blow u up to smithereens or shove a bullet to ur egoistical fancy head, ill never hear the end of it and vi will hate me forever.
and besides, u'll just come back. maybe. and wheres the fun in that, huh? i want u dead permanently. not for u to come back and bug me. so its pointless.
sure i can come up with neat ways to kill u for a while, but that will get boooooooooooooring. and i have bigger fish to fry these days anyway. ure a zit compared to jerry.
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I suppose I should thank you for being the bigger person. I'll talk to Vi. Maybe I can make her see some sense. I was always against harming him, you know. Before, when she gave him that black eye, I tried to stop her. She doesn't always listen when she gets heated.
[it's so confusing as hell, recalling what happened before the world changed. her memories are still a mess, but Vi's at least helped her straighten things out, so she knows the truth, even if she doesn't exactly remember it right.]
She's been through a lot. You have too. But just remember, you had Silco. She had no one, all this time, and hating Silco and wanting to find you was what kept her going. We've been here a year, yes, but that kind of pain doesn't always go away so easily. [It didn't help that Silco liked to antagonize Vi, either, but she's not about to touch on that right now.]
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and ive told u idiots over and over again, all he is doing is owning buildings nobody wants! hes not showing up in ur doorstep, mooning u, and throwing a middle finger at ur face. he is minding his own damn business. literally.
and yea, i get it. sometimes silco talks too much and he likes to dig under peoples skin. and maybe i can somehow get him to lay off of that.
but that doesnt give anyone the ok to kill him.
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all i want is to start over and have a nice life. but i guess im just too different for that.
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This isn't your fault, Jinx. Silco and Vi let you down. Like I said, you have every right to feel the way you do. But family is family. Sometimes they let you down. Sometimes they're frustrating and annoying, and you need space. That's okay. But I think, at the end of the day, you'll find a way to make it okay with them again.
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i cant believe im getting a pep talk from u of all people. the world must be fucking ending.
i need to shoot something so theres order again.
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Just think about what I said.
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